|“|| I want to die. That is my one and only wish. But it's a wish that's proven difficult to obtain. I want to die, and yet I'm forced to keep living. I don't want to see anyone. Men, women, anyone.
Angela Orosco is a disturbed, depressed, lonely, traumatized and suicidal homeless teenage runaway on a search for her missing mother in Silent Hill 2, who James Sunderland encounters four times. During the game, she is fleeing from the police. Her mental health has been damaged by her emotionally, physically and sexually abusive past, as well as her dysfunctional family. Angela is suffering from suicidal existential depression.
Angela's hair is a very dark brown and shoulder-length and she has brown eyes. She also wears a hair pin with a red jewel over her right ear. Angela wears a white or beige sweater with a loose turtle neck which reaches her waist. She has reddish-brown jeans. The shoes that she wears are casual and dark blue. Her introverted nature and the covering of her entire body may result from her past sexual abuse and the uncomfortable feeling of being exposed, which is common among victims of abuse. It may also cover up any bruises from her physical abuse.
Angela has extremely low self-esteem, feeling she is not worth any pity or basic human respect, and does not wish to live or exist, having lost the "will to live". Angela does not know why she even exists in this world and doesn't care about anything. She exhibits several common symptoms of severe daily long-term depression (difficulty feeling pleasure/happiness, constantly being bombarded by intrusive negative thoughts such as, "What's the point of living if I'm just going to die some day anyway?", "I will never be happy", "No one would miss me", "I don't belong in this world", etc, and inescapable feelings of sorrow, despair and helplessness frequently), mood swings, post-traumatic stress disorder, social anxiety and schizophrenia, but is not portrayed as a "psycho", "crazy" or "insane", which sometimes occurs when people suffering from mental illness are portrayed in the media. She is frequently tired, exhausted, drowsy, and has trouble sleeping, displaying symptoms of insomnia, psychomotor retardation and mental/brain fog.
She speaks with a slight nervous stutter/stammer, a form of speech impediment, stumbling over her words, e.g. "Who-who-who is it?", "I-I-I mean my mother...", and lack of confidence, such as "This... uhh... th-this town..." and tends to say "sorry" a lot to James, experiencing difficulty asserting herself.
She is portrayed as scared, frightened, sympathetic, confused, vulnerable and suffering, and feels as if the world is against her like she does not belong anywhere, being forced to live in a world she does not want to live in, unable to find happiness, purpose, value and meaning in life, a never-ending existential crisis. She dislikes going outside, preferring the comfort of her bed, and feels interacting with people is troublesome, even with other women. Every day feels like another meaningless boring chore, doing the same repetitive stuff over and over again: eating, showering, sleeping, cleaning, laundry, etc. Food no longer tastes delicious, instead, just matter to keep her body alive. Simply getting out of the bed every morning is a struggle. Angela feels alone in the world and has no one to talk to about her feelings (Silent Hill 2 is presumably set in the 1990s, before the Internet was mainstream and developed).
She believes most people around her are insincere, superficial and shallow, and no one understands her, and it is evident that Angela does not trust society. Angela hates it when people pretend and act like "everything is OK", when it really isn't. In this sense, Angela is understandably somewhat of a misanthrope, and believes most people only care about themselves. She claims James "only cares about himself". When James Sunderland remains silent after she asks him if he would help her, she scornfully replies, "That's what I thought."
She appears to have androphobia (fear of men) or misandry (dislike of men), telling James, "It's always the same, you're only after one thing! You don't have to lie, go ahead and say it!" (sex). One of her quotes from the novelization is, "It is a stench as disgusting and bestial as the lust of men." Having been raped by her father and brother and sexually harassed at work may have led her to generalize men as lustful and bestial. However, she seems to also be able to care about James, and even be calm around him, so she may just act this way when memories of her trauma arise. It is possible that Angela had no positive male role models.
Angela's internal pain and suffering had influenced thoughts of death and suicide upon her. Angela dreams of killing herself almost every single day. Angela desperately wants to die and attempted suicide many times, and considered slitting her wrists with a knife, but always ended up hesitating at the last moment. She also considered jumping off a rooftop and swallowing a bottle of sleeping pills. Angela believes that if she died, no one would care or miss her, and she wishes she was never born, preferring death and non-existence of consciousness over life. She views everyday life as something she is forced to do like a boring chore, and does not care about anything. She holds a strong hatred for her father for bringing her into a world she perceives as horrible, in addition to his violent abuse. Life, existence, awareness, consciousness, and being trapped in a human physical body feels like a horrible curse and a nightmare, rather than a beautiful gift and blessing.
Angela's history of abuse has caused her to develop a more volatile, enraged side to her personality than would be expected when she is first met; a result of her pent-up anger and frustration. After James first defeats the Abstract Daddy, she violently lashes out at it, kicking it multiple times before lifting a nearby TV and smashing it on top of the monster. When James attempts to calm her down, she snaps at him; thinking he is trying to control her like her father. She also callously accuses him of lying about Mary, saying that James didn't want to be with her, and wanted someone else.
Angela feels she is physically ugly and dislikes looking into mirrors because they act as a reminder for her; she describes her reflection as an "ugly thing" that "doesn't look like her anymore". This may imply that she also has body dysmorphic disorder, an issue among child abuse victims and people suffering from depression and anxiety, where the person perceives their body as being damaged, disgusting, unattractive, or repulsive.
Angela was born and grew up in a poor and toxic family. Because of her rough, broken, abusive and unfortunate traumatic childhood, Angela was convinced that she would never be truly happy, being forced to grow up too fast. Angela experienced pain and suffering her entire life. Her father, Thomas Orosco, an alcoholic lumberjack, beat, raped and sexually abused her while inebriated throughout her life. This caused her much apprehension towards men. In addition, Angela's brother would also abuse her incestuously. Meanwhile, Angela's mother frequently reminded her that she deserved her abuse and Angela endured it as she grew up. Although Angela's mother knew what was happening, she never intervened.
Later, Angela found a job as minimum wage restaurant employee, a tiresome and boring job she absolutely despised due to her distaste of the smell of meat and the male customers always trying to touch her body. Angela visited a doctor at a hospital and all he did was prescribe drugs (presumably anti-depressants), but they did not work and the side effects of them were torturous on her. This is possibly because Angela's depression wasn't entirely internally rooted and wasn't just a "chemical imbalance in the brain", but because Angela genuinely dislikes many external factors, such as her broken family, her tedious existence, society and the world.
Angela's mother eventually left her family, leaving Angela alone with her father and brother. After Angela graduated high school, she ran away from home but was found and brought back by her father. In retaliation, at the Orosco residence around midnight, Angela took a kitchen knife and passionately stabbed her father in the neck and torso multiple times, and then murdered her brother. There is evidence of a struggle in the room, implying that Thomas fought for his life, but was overwhelmed by Angela. She did not bother to take her family's cash or hide her father's corpse and fled the house.
Being in a state of emotional turmoil afterwards, with no one to turn to and nowhere else to go, Angela was called to Silent Hill to try to find her missing mother, her final hope. It is implied that Angela's mother may have lived in Silent Hill.
Silent Hill 2
On the way to Silent Hill, James Sunderland encounters Angela in a cemetery examining a grave, where she warns him that there's "something wrong" about Silent Hill. She tells him that she is looking for her mother, her brother and her father; however, Angela had murdered her father and brother prior the events of the game. This is similar to James, who tells her that he is looking for his wife, despite her being dead. It can be assumed that Angela either lied to James or repressed the memory of her murders.
A while later, James finds her lying on the floor in Room 109 of the Blue Creek Apartments with the knife she used as the murder weapon, contemplating suicide beside a large mirror, having given up on life. Through Angela's dialogue, it is heavily implied that her mother once lived in Silent Hill. James takes Angela's knife from her at her request. At first, she jumps back and points it toward him as if defending herself, but then she calms down and apologizes. She flees in panic after he initially tries to take it out of her hand. Examining the knife often is one of the factors which enables the "In Water" ending of the game, in which James suicides.
In the labyrinth area, a newspaper article can be found stating that Thomas Orosco, a lumberjack, was stabbed to death in the neck with a knife. James then hears Angela's voice behind a room covered with newspapers, symbolic of Angela being forced to remember killing her father, and possible worry of the media attention surrounding it.
Inside, James finds her sitting in a state of catatonia on the floor, cowering away from a monstrous version of her father known as Abstract Daddy, too frightened and terrified to move or stand up. It is likely that Angela views the monster differently than James, and that she sees her own father, Thomas, as the monster, which is why she calls it "daddy". However, because James did not know Thomas, it takes the form of a monster to him. In addition, the walls of the room are covered in a fleshy texture, with pistons thrusting in and out of holes in the walls, manifested from Angela's trauma of her sexual abuse.
After James defeats the creature, Angela viciously kicks it and throws a TV on it, killing it. Angela, acting with disdain and general hatred towards James and all men, falls to the floor and sobs, and becomes physically ill while remembering her father raping and beating her; James tries to console her and Angela screams at him to back off and not touch her. She then accuses him of abandoning Mary for another woman before leaving the room.
Angela is last seen at a burning staircase in the Lakeview Hotel, vacantly standing between two skinned blood-stained male corpses stitched to a frame, symbolic of her father and brother. Initially, she confuses James for her mother and tells him that she wishes he never saved her from the Abstract Daddy. Angela asks him if he would take her in his care, but James looks down, ashamed. Angela asks James to return her knife so that she can kill herself, but he declines. Angela ascends the burning staircase and before she leaves, James states that the room is hot as hell. Angela replies that it's always like this for her; her life was always a living hell.
With no family, friends, home, job or money left, having fled from the authorities and burdened by her emotional torment and distress with nowhere else to go in the world, Angela disappears past the flames, leaving to find another way to suicide, eventually killing herself off-screen. This scene should not be mistaken as Angela literally setting herself on fire; it could also be interpreted as Angela "walking to her grave".
|“|| Her name is borrowed from the protagonist of the film The Net. It's also a religious name common in Spanish lineage that is derived from "angel", which was a source of inspiration as well.
- "Uh... this town... there's... something wrong with it."
- "I'm looking for my Mama... I mean my mother. It's been so long since I've seen her."
- "You're the same as me... It's easier just to run... Besides, it's what we deserve."
- "I'm sorry... did... did you find the person you're looking for?"
- "I've gotta find my mama..."
- "No! I'm sorry... I've been bad... Please don't...!"
- "No, Daddy! Please, don't!"
- "Don't order me around!"
- "So what do you want, then? Oh, I see... You're trying to be nice to me, right? I know what you're up to! It's always the same! You're only after one thing!"
- "You don't have to lie! Go ahead and say it! Or you could just force me. Beat me up like... he... he always did. You only care about yourself, anyway! You disgusting pig!"
- "Don't touch me! You make me sick!"
- "Liar! I know about you! You didn't want her around anymore! You probably found someone else!"
- "Mama! Mama, I was looking for you! You're the only one left! Maybe then... maybe then I can rest. Mama... why are you running away? ...You're not my Mama! It's... it's you! I... I'm sorry..."
- "Thank you for saving me. But... I wish you hadn't. Even Mama said it... I deserved what happened."
- "No... don't pity me. I'm not worth it... Or maybe... you think you can save me. Will you love me...? Take care of me...? Heal all my pain...? ...That's what I thought."
- "James... give me back that knife."
- "You see it too? For me, it's always like this."
Silent Hill 2: The Novelization
- "For 150 dollars a week, I work at my tiresome job, in a place that reeks of sizzling, burning meat. It is a stench as disgusting and bestial as the lust of men. With their broad grins and vulgar laughter, they stare at the waitress' uniform skirts, their gazes coiling around their legs as if to taste them. The shameless hands of the male customers—no matter how many times I smack them away, they still persist—grabbing at me, stroking the curve of my hips."
- "How many times have I held a knife to my wrists, but hesitated? Stood at the edge of a rooftop, but couldn't jump? Swallowed a bottle of sleeping pills, only to force them back up again? It's like buying a mountain of candy and forcing myself to devour it all, eating to spit it back out, and spitting it out to eat more. This endless cycle of binging and purging could go on for days."
- "Going outside is so troublesome. Some days I just crawl into bed and never come out. It's so hard to sleep at night that I'm constantly haunted by drowsiness. Nevertheless, I lie completely still in the uneasy silence, wary of the sound of footsteps approaching the door. Tonight, as I await the abuse I receive every night, my anxiety grows until it turns into crushing despair. I can’t endure this kind of panic."
- "I'm too afraid to look in the mirror, too afraid to face that ugly thing that doesn't look like me anymore. I can't do anything. I don't care about anything. I only spend my days trembling and dreading the arrival of the night. Every day is that empty."
- "I want to die. That is my one and only wish. But it's a wish that's proven difficult to obtain. I want to die, and yet I'm forced to keep living. I don't want to see anyone. Men, women, anyone. Those people who are always meddling with their unwanted kind words."
- "I just can’t stomach that friendly, but completely insincere, attitude everyone seems to have. I want to die! Nothing you can say will ever change my mind! For all your consolation, it’s not like any of you would willingly take my place. Such irresponsible people, none of you understand me.... Not even Mama..."
- "Even the doctor from that far away hospital doesn't understand me. After everything I tried to tell him during the examination, all he did was prescribe more drugs. The side effects were torturous and soon it became too much."
- "It's impossible. Everything’s impossible. Even back then, I knew none of them could save me. I knew that eventually, I'd be left with no choice. And now I know that there's only one thing I can do. At least that much is still possible."
- "Trying to kill myself, but always meeting with failure... it's all... because of them. I can never forget what my father and brother have done."
- It can be theorized that Angela set her house on fire, but there is no proof of this. If Angela did set their house on fire, the newspaper would have mentioned it, but it does not. The fire in the Lakeview Hotel scene is because the hotel was once on fire.
- Angela's physical appearance seems to be based off Sandra Bullock, especially considering her character in The Net was also named Angela.
- Angela is voiced by Donna Burke, who later voiced Claudia Wolf in Silent Hill 3. Both characters were severely abused by their fathers, and both games involve a fight by the protagonist against a monstrous representation of their father. Laura Bailey also reprised the role of both Angela and Claudia in the HD Collection.
- In the "Making of Silent Hill 2", the developers stated that Angela was originally supposed to be 16-17, but Donna Burke's voice and her image made her seem older, so they changed her age to 19. It also shows how the detrimental effects of abuse and stress can cause a child to biologically grow up faster (fast maturation) and leave permanent scars which can remain in adulthood.
- Angela appears on the cover of Silent Hill 2 and The Silent Hill Experience.
- In the intro of the game, Angela is seen running in a house. This could be interpreted as Angela running away from her father, or running away to Silent Hill.
- In Room 109, there are two distinct and contrasting doors side to side. One door on the left is dark and boarded up, while the other is white and clean. They could represent the path to Hell and Heaven, or childhood and adolescence as there is a teddy bear next to the dark door. Alternatively, it may represent Angela's desire to repress the dark memories of her defiled youth, in favor of purity and a clean slate. Angela is inside of the room past the white door, contemplating suicide.
- In Japan, the color of white is considered to be pure, but it is also the color of death (as in the purity of death). Angela's sweater is also white and may have "death" symbolism. When James first meets Angela, Angela is shrouded in a white foggy cemetery.
- The prisoner coin may be connected to Angela somehow, as it has a woman who strongly resembles her on it. The woman on the coin is facing to the left and is blindfolded. Whether or not it truly is Angela on the coin is unknown. Aside from the woman on the coin, it's possible that the developers intended it to be connected to Angela in some way, as it appears in the room where she considers suicide and Angela was a prisoner to her father.
- In Room 109, a photo can be found of a family, which may be Angela's family. The photo shows a mother, father, daughter and brother, matching Angela's family members. The photo is ripped between the girl and her father and brother, implying that Angela may have been a little girl when she was sexually abused, and that she ripped the photo out of disdain.
- In the Abstract Daddy's labyrinth room, there are several holes with pistons or sphincters inside of them, which move with a steady thrust. The walls appear to be made out of flesh or raw meat, with a texture resembling clay which someone has dragged their fingers across. In the novelization, it is stated that the room has an unpleasant odor. These details could represent the sexual abuse inflicted upon Angela. In the novelization, the room is reminiscent of a room from her childhood home, implied to be a living room, hence the television. It is possible every piston is symbolic of how many times Angela was molested (23).
- The three tablets in the prison appear to represent James, Eddie Dombrowski, and Angela. "I give you blood to atone for the three Sins" is written where the three tablets need to be placed. Angela's "sin" was murdering her father, while Eddie murdered a dog and James murdered Mary. Angela's tablet is "The Seductress", which is found inside of a shower stall. Rape victims normally take showers soon afterwards to abolish the feelings of filth, which may mean Angela took showers after sexual abuse.
- Right before James fights Eddie Dombrowski, he comes across a small graveyard. There are three open graves: each has James's, Angela's and Eddie's names written on them.
- In the burning staircase, there are two bodies on the walls that are covered by sheets stretched tightly across them, conveying the idea of restricted movement; being held down. The sheets strongly resemble human skin stitched to a frame. The bodies are stained in the crotch with dried blood, with obvious castration wounds. These likely represent Angela's father and brother, affirmed in the novelization which James describes as a "middle-aged man" and "younger man". The corpse also appears in the short film "Fukuro".
- When James states "It's hot as hell in here", Angela replies "You see it, too? For me... it's always like this". This could mean that Angela's Otherworld is full of flames, heat and constant burning, or, due to a very abusive childhood she has experienced, she may have stated that her life was a living hell.
- At the top of the hotel stairs, Angela can be seen bending and twisting.
- Although the Silent Hill 2 novelization stated that Angela's brother also sexually abused her, this is never mentioned in the game itself. The game also never mentions the death of Angela's brother, though Angela implies it when she says "Now you're the only one left", referring to her mother.
- Angela's death is never shown or mentioned in the game, but Masahiro Ito confirmed that she did indeed die, though he did not remember how.
- In Silent Hill 3, Heather Mason encounters a Closer feeding on a woman's body in the Central Square Shopping Center. Her face and clothing resemble Angela's, but her hair is shorter and her clothes are of different colors. According to developer Masahiro Ito, it was created by re-using one of Angela's character models. Due to the model's clothing and hair differences, it may have been an early concept model, or just an edited version.
- In Silent Hill 3, three posters advertising Silent Hill 2 are also found in the office section of the shopping mall. The posters depict Angela's face with a blue background.
- In the Xbox 360 version of Silent Hill: Homecoming, if the player does not forgive Adam Shepherd, the main protagonist's father, they get an achievement called "Angela's Choice". This hints that Angela may have never forgiven her father for sexually abusing her.
- Angela may have inspired Anna from the Silent Hill film. This is supported by her anxious, awkward nature, and even has a knife taken from her just as James Sunderland did to Angela in the game. Their names also both begin with "An," and much like Angela, Anna seems devout to one purpose; in her first scene, she explains her adamant service regarding God and Christabella, and in the game, Angela seems solely motivated by the need to find her mother. Lastly, both Angela and Anna are brutalized by powerful male figures, with Angela being abused by her father, and Anna killed by Pyramid Head, Alessa's representation of raw male brutality.
- Her predicament is also very similar to Shannon from Silent Hill: Book of Memories (teenager, suffering from depression, being involved with an older man). By extension, she also shares a lot of similarities with Alice Liddell from American McGee's Alice (teenager, depressed, suicidal, thoughts of cutting, family rape as backstory, fire symbolism, bloody knife symbolism, financial problems).
- Angela may have inspired the character Mayu from the Elfen Lied series, which was released not too long after Silent Hill 2, in terms of background and appearance. Like Angela, Mayu was sexually abused by her father, and was ignored and verbally abused by her mother, which resulted in her running away from home. Furthermore, the two share a distinctly similar hairstyle and wear a long, beige, turtleneck sweater covering a large amount of her body, as to not expose her breasts. Mayu even finds a dog called "James", but then decides to call the dog "Wanta".